will I ever be happy?

Don't get me wrong I am happy with many parts of my life, in fact I am sure from the outside looking in my life looks pretty fabulous. I have been waiting on some news, it has had me whirling with anxiety, and finally this morning I got the good news I was hoping for.…

I am frustrated, I am tired.

I hate feeling tired. I don't mind that sleepy feeling after a long day when you lay your head on a soft pillow, but the problem is I feel tired almost all the time. I am literally tired of being tired. I actually used to believe I was lazy, I hated myself for it. I…

I want another baby

I want to have another baby. To be honest I have wanted another baby for years now. This isn't some new revelation, this isn't a phase I am going through. The ache in my heart is a constant. I push my feelings down for months and then all I can think about when I lay…

living in a false reality

I felt super annoyed today, well not all day, well actually it did sit with me for quite a while and here I am writing about it, so maybe it really did annoy me more than I care to admit? Out for breakfast with a few girlfriends, the subject of sexual abuse came up. If…

I was raped. So do you blame me?

I am angry, but fully aware the my anger masks deep hurts. I was reading about 'rape culture' late last night, I could feel that I was growing more upset, I should have put down what I was reading, but I kept reading. By the time I had finished I turned out the light beside…

‘my’ menopause freak out

I found out my sister is going through Menopause! She is not that much older than me, she is still so young! I am kind of freaking out a little (or a bit more than a little). Why? I mean it isn't about me so why would I freak out? This is her body, her…

The Journey Begins

So here I am Hi I'm Renee, well Ren for short. I decided it was time to create my own space, a space for me, because well to be frank, finding my own space can be pretty damm impossible these days. I am not even sure anyone bar me thinks I need personal space, certainly…